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7 Sep


Be as bold as a peacock

 All painting painted over the last few months! 
    its been a very long time!Hello again!… (If this doesn’t quite flow I do apologise I will go through tomorrow just a bit tied now but wanted to get this out)

There has been many changes in my little life the past year.

I had gone through a very difficult time coping/accepting the regular progression of this mad, naughtyeye eyecondition. 

After ten years of being diagnosed I felt I had been smacked in th facewih emotion.  I couldn’t eat with worry and lost stone…(I’m back acting cake again border Line fatty) haha.. 👍🏻

So I can see random shapes sticking out..Lyon can kind of see the missing central vision here as there’s not much going on In The middle

(Trying to express the shapes I see)

The final picture I have blocked out what I can’t see of the picture as I look at it.

…it’s like when I’m in the bath my feet disappear…I play a game n state at my feet and move my leg up until my toe pops out of the blind spot. Ha. Very strange girl iam…
Stresses particularly finding a “normal” job, endless scrolling through the net trying to find something suitablety  that I can do independently and make a success of the things I have going for me haha.  

Alongside thinking if his didn’t happen to me what would my life be like… What job would I have, what car would I have , how my whole life would be different… Seeing friends, people in the street age rather guessing like a jigsaw that it could be such a body because it’s a person moving, going into there house…. So strange when your vision has been fine before to work with eyes that are just odd.
I realised it was weird when walking my dog I Wouldn t. recognise the people …I would recognise their pet…like oh itsthe little white fluffy one.’s awful thinking,

I felt like everything got I top of me no I just sobbed all the way home ..I couldn’t express my feelings to family or friends without feeling I was worrying them even more.

I was ready to pour my heart out….

It s time to take action….

I rang the Macular Society and when I first rang I couldn’t speak I was so upset..I thought I cant believe my life has come to this…but the lady on the other end was really loved and reassuring.

I hung up at first as I couldnt get my words out. Th lady was. Calming and I told her how I was upset and felt I needed to talk to someone I wasn’t close to.

I felt If I didn’t hav this eye. Problem I would be doing a job that was creative, independent and would have a happy forefilled life.

I couldn’t help but think “imagine”,,,,

I had also enrolled at college which was a big realisation that IT wasn’t just ‘a bit of an EU problem” I used to try and cover up….. 

After starting night school June 2013 I loved floristry so much I began a full time course September 2013.. This is where I saw a big change as I have sang for years and not really picks up a pen to write with I learned hat I now couldn’t read my own. writing, I had to take pictures of the black board and zoom which was very slow and boring… But despite this I completed my course just a few months ago and awaiting my results.

I still don’t know what some of the peopl on my class look like after nearly a year but never mind I smiled when I alms I to th room and looks around and continued but made some lovely mates that I sat next to etc..l that were so helpful if I struggled racing anything,,, theta hers also blew pegs up Ono massive fonts which was great too.

I just struggled initially accepting this is life now….

After ringing the Macular society I had about eight assigns with a councillor on the phone for an hour a week.

th councillor set me goals and asksed me to see the situation as if I had good vision and someone visually impaired came to work with me and if they needed help… What would I do…

I said no problem, course etc…

So she made me feel that people would understand.
We set goals and she gave me tasks to do and oI kept her updated with how I was getting on.

My New Years resolution was to work in a florist wishing the fist six month of the year.

I had written cvs with detail about Stargardts and some withoute, I approached numerous florists but no luck… I kept at it… My mum and dad always say ” if you throw enough sh!t at the all, eventually some will stick” basically keeps trying until. You get there…

I had tried everywhere even offering to work for free.

I nipped to town and as my taxi pulled up something to,d me to take my cv…  

As I go into ow there was a flower stall setting up,,, I actually thought I was seeing thing. I walked past and nipped to Topshop. I thought you don’t get if you don’t ask.

I had a trial the next weekend and got the job!

I was made up! I worked there a couple of days. A Week….there was only onpwrson on th still at a tim but it was a great. Experience!l

 I did this for nine months and through working at the stall I got to know a few people which led to an interviea clothing company which I also worked at for nearly a year…
I missed doing my Art mainly so didcided to and get a studio up and running, mixed with singing and promotion work.

 This is a cat I’m painting for a friend… I use my iPad to zoom every part.

It can be extremely difficult to get the scale of the image correct as I am zooming in and out and hen finding where I am up to on the page is a challenge in itself but I am often. Suprized. When I take a photo and see th result zooms in.

I find taking pictures of my work exciting as it always looks better Han what I see. Through my own eys””3  

I just wanted to get. Back I touch to say don’t feel alone there is help and think of the great vision we do have.
I have although in saying this experienced a big blue bright flash light in my eyes where all my vision God for a couple of seconds. It’s painful and scary…has anyone la experienced this?
I also went for a couple of appointments this year in London to have almost a bonocular lens implanted. But it as t suitable.
I’ll keep eatifng my veg and exercising….
Until next time ❤

Here’s some of my art work I’ve Ben working on recently! :Dx 

Work in progress!

Thank you for #apple #zoom #accessability #freedom #chance #ipad

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